Today is eight years since Brian died which is hard to believe some days. No matter what my mind always replays those memories but this year has been a little different because I’ve noticed that Hayden is also remembering him a little more the past few weeks and keeps mentioning memories he has. He was […]
This Covid thing and not working has had me doing lots of tinkering around the house. I’ve organized lots of cabinets and drawers and gotten rid of stuff and recently I found a few of my journals from years ago and went down a rabbit hole of memories reading through those and let’s just say […]
Well hello there! I have awakened from the abyss and decided to dust off my site and get back to it. My last post was a whole eight months ago! I have thought about writing quite a bit in that time but part of me was feeling a little too “out there” as I shared […]
May 8th snuck up on me this year. Memories flood me all the time and sometimes dates don’t really feel much different but sometimes they do. I noticed that I’ve been a little more emotional this past week than normal but I’m also freshly off prescription anti-depressants and trying to go a more natural route […]
For the first time in the six years since Brian passed I can honestly say that I’m happy, at peace and ready to start my next chapter in life. I thought I was at this point long ago but I wasn’t and it took Mark and I splitting up for a bit to realize that. […]
So it was a Friday just like today exactly six years ago that my life was about to change literally overnight. I didn’t know that yet as I put my kids to bed, them asking what time daddy was coming home, and I crawled into bed myself. I hadn’t heard from him at all […]
I started this blog almost a year ago on the 5th anniversary of my husbands death. I can’t tell you how therapeutic it has been and for that I am so very grateful. As I go through a new season in my life I realized that my blog sometimes sounds as though I’m stuck in […]
It’s been awhile since I’ve written a blog. I’ve been going through a lot emotionally and I have found that it’s easier for me to write about it once I’ve come through on the other side and have had time to reflect. I’m not on the other side yet but felt compelled to write about […]
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Just had to share these old texts between then 8 year old Hayden from his iPod and Brian in the days before he took his life. January 25th is the day he didn’t come home. February 27th I think he was thanking him for a sign that he was still around and the last one […]
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