We have lived in the same house since Hayden was just under a year old, about 13 years now. In Brian’s letter he had hoped that financially I would be able to stay in the house. I have thus far but it’s a catch 22. The house has seen so much […]
I joke that this blog should really be called “Fearful Widow” but I couldn’t seriously call it that and instead named it Fearless Widow in hopes that it would be a self fulfilling prophecy. You know how your thoughts become your reality type thinking. I’m thankfully not nearly as fearful as I used […]
Those first days and weeks were such a blur. I felt like I was in a fog. Family and friends swooped in and I went on auto pilot. Planning his memorial service and dealing with insurance, legal paperwork, social security and all those things that I never thought I would […]
Mark came into my life extremely quickly after Brian’s death, like a month after quickly. I know this is shocking and alarming to many that I could be with someone else so soon but that is just how it unfolded. I had actually met him twice before Brian died which is really odd to […]
Why is something that I will never know until I meet him on the other side. I just have to learn to live with the questions. He did leave me a long five or six page letter and I’m very grateful that I got that as I have met other widows who didn’t get […]
Five years ago January 26th was a Saturday and at about this time I was getting the kids into the car to drive to the airport and look for his car. A black Ford Explorer in a sea of other Ford Explorer’s. He had gone out of town for a one night […]
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