Phone

Today is eight years since Brian died which is hard to believe some days.   No matter what my mind always replays those memories but this year has been a little different because I’ve noticed that Hayden is also remembering him a little more the past few weeks and keeps mentioning memories he has.   He was […]

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Last pics

I recently had my kitchen cabinets repainted from dark espresso to white for a fresh change and while the refrigerator was moved out I found the last Christmas card that Brian and I had sent out amidst all the dust bunnies.  I cleaned it off and placed it back on the fridge to remember for […]

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Journals

This Covid thing and not working has had me doing lots of tinkering around the house. I’ve organized lots of cabinets and drawers and gotten rid of stuff and recently I found a few of my journals from years ago and went down a rabbit hole of memories reading through those and let’s just say […]

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Back

Well hello there! I have awakened from the abyss and decided to dust off my site and get back to it. My last post was a whole eight months ago! I have thought about writing quite a bit in that time but part of me was feeling a little too “out there” as I shared […]

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Content

It’s been a minute since I’ve written a blog post. Haven’t written since going to visit Brian’s resting place this past June. Summer is over and kids are back in school. This year, Hayden started high school and Haley started middle school so it’s been a few weeks of firsts and getting into our new […]

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Anniversary

May 8th snuck up on me this year. Memories flood me all the time and sometimes dates don’t really feel much different but sometimes they do. I noticed that I’ve been a little more emotional this past week than normal but I’m also freshly off prescription anti-depressants and trying to go a more natural route […]

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Flashback

So this is a random blog but shows how the mind of a widow can wander and go back. Right this minute I’m on a flight to Key West with my chapter 2, Mark. He’s currently fast asleep under half of my blanket that I think he’s glad that I brought. We are sitting in […]

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Chapter 2…

For the first time in the six years since Brian passed I can honestly say that I’m happy, at peace and ready to start my next chapter in life. I thought I was at this point long ago but I wasn’t and it took Mark and I splitting up for a bit to realize that. […]

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Six years later…Happy

So it was a Friday just like today exactly six years ago that my life was about to change literally overnight.    I didn’t know that yet as I put my kids to bed, them asking what time daddy was coming home, and I crawled into bed myself.   I hadn’t heard from him at all […]

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