I started this blog almost a year ago on the 5th anniversary of my husbands death.   I can’t tell you how therapeutic it has been and for that I am so very grateful.

As I go through a new season in my life I realized that my blog sometimes sounds as though I’m stuck in the past and always sad but that is so not the case.    I admit it has been a rocky road the past six years but it is true what they say that time heals.   It doesn’t erase the past and the pain that’s for sure but new memories finally replace some of the old so that you’re not always thinking of the last Christmas or birthday you had with your loved one, etc.     That is true in my case.   I have realized that my happy days far outweigh my sad days.   It’s more like sad “moments” now that pop up when something triggers a memory but I don’t sit and dwell in those thoughts anymore.

With my blog I was able to revisit all of those feelings and experiences now that time has gone by and I’ve had time to reflect and feel the pain.   It took five years for me to get to that point to write it down but again we are all on our own journey and this has just been mine.

I will still occasionally write a blog post but I just want everyone to know out there that I’m not dead.   What happened to my family was shocking and sad and tragic but we are all still here and Brian would most definitely want us to live life to the fullest and be happy and love and laugh and laugh some more.    I know that to my core.   So, with that I’m ending 2018 and the year of my blog behind (a little early) and I’m going to live.

Love to you all and this isn’t goodbye just I’ll catch you later……..

xoxo

Damita