As you may know from my last blog I have lived in this house for almost 13 years now and much of it sits exactly as it has since Brian died 5 years ago but every once in a while I will come upon a hand written note by him tucked into a book or a card or a drawer and even though I’ve usually seen them before years and years ago (one I don’t remember) it always feels like a message from him and I tear up and say “thank you”.   

I found this one soon after he passed and though I did remember him giving it to me so very long ago I found it at a time that I really needed to hear it again so I feel like it was a little note from beyond.

I don’t remember when he left me this note but I know it wasn’t very long ago because I still remember these particular sticky notes.  Just seeing his handwriting and almost hearing his words is comforting and also heartbreaking.  

This is an excerpt from a letter he wrote early on in our relationship. I think he was onto something.

And this one stopped me in my tracks.   I don’t remember ever seeing it before so it was a “catch your breath kind of moment” for sure.   So do we, so do we.   

Sometimes you don’t believe in the afterlife until you lose someone very close to you and then you often wonder and hope that they can somehow still communicate with you.    I have lots of other signs that he’s around but that will be a different post.   Whether he is or isn’t or it’s in my mind or not, it makes me feel better to think that he’s still trying to be around just a little.