Fear

I joke that this blog should really be called “Fearful Widow” but I couldn’t seriously call it that and instead named it Fearless Widow in hopes that it would be a self fulfilling prophecy.   You know how your thoughts become your reality type thinking.   I’m thankfully not nearly as fearful as I used […]

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Fog

     Those first days and weeks were such a blur.   I felt like I was in a fog.   Family and friends swooped in and I went on auto pilot.    Planning his memorial service and dealing with insurance, legal paperwork, social security and all those things that I never thought I would […]

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Mark

Mark came into my life extremely quickly after Brian’s death, like a month after quickly.    I know this is shocking and alarming to many that I could be with someone else so soon but that is just how it unfolded. I had actually met him twice before Brian died which is really odd to […]

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Why?

Why is something that I will never know until I meet him on the other side.  I just have to learn to live with the questions.   He did leave me a long five or six page letter and I’m very grateful that I got that as I have met other widows who didn’t get […]

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